Excursus on answered prayer

Prayer written in Glen Ellyn April 14, 1982
I have such a desire to share this wonderful life that God has given me--the delights of each day--the joy I find in reading His word--with a man who loves God with equal desire to know and love God.

"Hormones" as Belinda would say. And perhaps the solitude in which I've been protected. But with the coming of spring, and with the hope of Easter alive in my heart, I am newly wanting children & the giving involved in loving them & their father. I am wanting a partner, an equal partner, in my daily walk with God--one from whom I could learn a new way of seeing--one who could learn the same from me. A strong & beautiful man, masculine in his "Imago Dei", with a man's shaven beard and a man's sensitivities & sensibilities and a man's love for God. (I'm sure a man's love for God is naturally different from a woman's love for God & I long to be made complete in this way.)

And now, dear Lord, that I have expressed this to You, I shall tuck this prayer away in your heart in which I put my trust, and ask that You channel this loving energy into my work--even into the repainting of Brian's face. Thank you my dearest Father!

(What a name! As my love & affection for my own father grows, how precious is the transfer--the understanding of my heavenly Father. Dear Lord, it is this kind of father which I pray for my children.)


and in the library at Piety Hill April 29, 1982
Lord, if I keep studying in this vein which we are discussing today, shall you include in my "shopping list" one who understands & thinks about these things? Just stimulated & thrilled to meet so many virtuous people & wanting more. Thank You. (A Bill Campbell, a Clyde Kilby, a Marion Montgomery; the goodness of these men, Lord, Right?


Now to Him who is able to do exceedingly abundantly above all that we ask or think, according to the power that works in us, to Him be glory in the church by Christ Jesus to all generations, forever and ever. Amen. Ephesians 3:20-21